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But I liked this a lot. If you know me, you'll understand why. If not, well, enjoy.

*smiles*

The Invitation

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life's betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us to
be careful
be realistic
remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
"Yes."

It doesn't interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.

© Oriah Mountain Dreamer, from the book "The Invitation" published by HarperSanFrancisco, 1999

Date: 2003-09-16 04:21 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] nickys.livejournal.com
That is beautiful.

The bit about betrayal hits a bit of a chord, as I'm in the process of finding out whether an old friend can cope with the fact that I'm simply not going to allow my Brother-in-Law to walk all over me, no matter how much easier it would be for everyone else.

Date: 2003-09-16 04:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lilitufire.livejournal.com
Yeah.

That bit hit a chord for me too. But it's better to be true to oneself. The other just isn't a choice at all, really.

*hugs*

Looking forward to catching up on Thursday.

Date: 2003-09-16 05:07 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] nickys.livejournal.com
Thanks.

It's not a new crisis, just a continuation of the boring old one.
I remain surprised and appalled that anyone thinks I am unreasonable in refusing to go through that particular Hell again.

Date: 2003-09-16 05:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lilitufire.livejournal.com
*nods*

You shouldn't have to justify not having time for someone. Anyone who puts pressure on you to conform and like someone just because it will make them feel more comfortable isn't a friend at all, in my opinion.

But then, you know I have strong feelings on those subjects ;)

Date: 2003-09-16 06:56 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] nickys.livejournal.com
Yes, these days I'm mostly just tired of the process.
I explain what he did and people say "gosh, that was really, really bad", but they still can't seem to get their heads round the idea that I don't want to leave myself open to him doing it again.
Oh well, just have to see how this one goes. He hasn't stormed off in a total sulk as yet, so there's still hope.

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